asshole

I have never learned to love people properly
I am a vengeful person
I am a spiteful god
I hate all of you
I am walking around the earth
I am walking on top of, around, and over a dozen blury clouds
I am on the sunset strip, it is 1989, I want to stick needles in my arm
Cradle me mother, I am starving for your attention
I will never learn to love anyone
Doesn't seem right
but its all I can think right now
I am in a negative place
I am in a negative space
This apartment will swallow me whole
and shit me out into the internet where I will become a youtube video
that nobody watches, a meme that doesn't catch on, fuck, I am fucked.
Seems bleak, tiny celestial bodies wrapped around my spine, I am bending
backwards, trying really hard, like I am poking you on facebook and everything
seems like I am doing everything right, but maybe my right is wrong to you.
Fuck it, I don't care, I was born to be an asshole anyways.

Sandwich

I am eating a sandwich in your bathroom. The baby is crying. Feels like I am in the middle of nowhere. I hear shouts from the bedroom. I am not suppose to be here. It feels like I am not suppose to be here. There is a sick feeling in my stomach. I am throwing the sandwich in the toilet. I flushed the toilet. Water is coming out of the toilet. Fuck, the toilet is clogged. It was a pretty big sandwich. Turkey ham, Swiss cheese, tomato and lettuce with a dash of vinegar and salt on a hero. I don't know why I flushed it. I guess I am being passive aggressive again. Fuck, I am still kind of hungry. I smoke a cigarette. I know you hate when I smoke in your bathroom. I can hear the baby crying. Someone do something please I think to myself. When the fuck is this world going to end? My socks are wet. You are knocking on the door. Your friends all hate me now, your little sister needs to use the bathroom. I am crying, I don't know why I am crying but I am. I unlock the door as quietly as possible and leave out the window. I hope I never see you again. I hope I never see anyone again. I am going back to the deli.

I want to fuck you in your stomach
There are naughty things brewing through my brain constantly
Fuck you for not having my sex drive
Appetite for destruction
I am kissing my pillow, hands on my penis, I will ride this one out alone tonight
Fuck you for not understanding my weird desires
I just want to kiss you in odd places
This will end badly
But fuck it,
I am almost there
shaking in bed and crying tonight

 Vomitingwinter:

I want to open your legs and spray them with hot glue

******:
That's not really erotic but I appreciate the effort

Vomitingwinter:
Fuck I tried so hard, idk I am an asexual male

******:
maybe you just put in too much thought into this stuff?

 Vomitingwinter:
i over think everything idk, i should just shoot myself. I will write a suicide note on ms word.

******:
What will you write?

Vomitingwinter
I am a socially fucked 21 year old virgin. My penis is the size of an egg roll, can't cope

******:
I like egg rolls.

Vomitingwinter
Egg rolls are good, I guess. But egg rolls aren't sexually stimulating.

******:
They could be, if applied correctly

Vomitingwinter:
What does that even mean?

******:
I don't know I was just trying to... something.

Vomitingwinter:
I give up 0_0!!!!!! i'll be on later or something

 ******:
k, bye =(

I want to die staring at my computer screen

My eyes are red. I can't focus tonight.
The bleakness of life. You and I. Me and
you. We aren't anything.

My TV is here. My cell phone is here.
My laptop is here. But you are not.

There are bugs trying to enter my window
and you are running away.

A cold glass of milk to calm my nerves.

I am anxious as fuck.

There is nothing to do but wait for all of this
to be over, again.

kiddo

i will rustle your hair and call you kiddo
i like ice cream and the way it makes you
smile. will you act like a child with me?
Just once, I want to see your kite tangle
its string with mine, mixed like brad pitts
adopted children. I like you.

In your garden

Place my hand in your hand
I am sleeping in your garden
Ants and centipedes walk all over me
I watch birds in the distance
I'd give anything to hold you again
I'm sorry I like you better than myself
I don't know how to follow through with anything
I am tending your garden
you have abandoned every flower
I think you should grow tomatos out here
seems lonely
seems bleak
I want your feet over my feet
your lips on mine
I am starving for you, shaking too
There is a storm coming
I want to save every flower
pieces of you
But I will probably go search for shelter
The rain is too cold