You spell "penis" pen is and text it to me over and over
You type "my pen is giant"
I respond "My penis giant, lol"
I try to hear you laugh from wherever you are.
Try to mimic the sound from memory but it doesn't really work.
I play a waka flocka flame song on my ipod and think "I'm a trill ass nigga"
I'm from new york so I think its ok to think that.
I text you "I'm a trill ass nigga"
and you don't text me back.
I check to see if my text was sent and it says it was and I feel stupid.
Feel like texting to you how stupid I feel but I don't do it.
I don't do anything.
I lie in bed and touch my penis.
I think "masturbation" then I think "no"
Feels like the world is going to explode.
The explosion might be ok because everyone would die simultaneously and there will be no pain/sadness.
I picture you lying in bed next to me naked.
I picture your body exploding and instead of blood and guts there is confetti.
Surprise this is not the first time I have killed you in my head.