Sunday, July 21, 2013
My friend tells me she just wishes she could die
And I can't help but think about a Wikipedia entry
I read three days ago about someone younger and
Way more successful than me.
A year ago I gave up weed for cigarettes. Traded jail
Time for tooth decay, bad breath and cancer.
We talked about babies. I said I'd only consider having
One if I could name it Bruce Willis jr, you kissed me and
I interpreted that as "no dice, baby"
I search Internet porn sites and type in the name of
Various foods. I will never look at donuts the same.
When my mother passed away, I thought about your legs
At the funeral, thighs begging to be bitten, and how beautiful
You could look in the morning, when tired was the only
Expression you could muster.
I tell my friend "it gets better" and tell myself that tomorrow
I will build myself a new heart out of cotton candy and
I write a note to myself and stick it to my bathroom mirror, it reads
Friday, July 12, 2013
In my dreams the kit kat bar gets
gagged And pleasured to death by the purple tentacles.
The girl with the pink hair just collects sea
Shells to sell on eBay.
The ninja just gets drunk On sake and frustrated by the lack of sex in his
When the koga clan arrive they play beer pong With lupin the third, and smoke weed till the sun Comes out.
In my dreams I am a paper air plane built by a boy With way too much time on his hands, he bites his Nails till they bleed and day dreams about a time when he wjll Never have to live vicariously through his day Dreams.
I am watching anime on a small screen and all I want to Do is punch through every wall I have to till I can fall asleep
In whatever bed/mattress/couch/floor it is that you inhabit
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
I didn't know what to say so I'll say it here:
The aliens are fucking shit up some where on a planet we don't even have a name for yet.
The aliens don't have time to fuck shit up on earth.
"We'll leave earth fucking to the humans" an alien thinks out loud.
All of the other aliens nod in agreement.
I smoke cigarettes and drink beer, I am pissing in a field somewhere.
I look at the sky, I look at you, I prefer you to the moon and stars, really I do.
If aliens invaded the earth I would tell them to fuck off and die.
They probably wouldn't understand me.
I'd say there's a girl I like and I'd point at my chest and they would understand.
Love is universal or something
Your worth is universal.
I'd kick all the alien ass I'd have to just to hold your human hand.
Really I would and I try to tell you this but I can't
I mumble the words and say forget it, it's nothing when you say you can't understand me, and I run away and you just keep on keeping on as if nothing ever happened.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I could give up porn for you...
I want to spoon you as if you were the last bit of peanut butter at the end of the jar, nibble on your earlobe and let you beg me for more.
Woah being sexy is not my area of expertise
I want to wear you like a candy bar wears its wrapper
Do stuff to my body
I want to wake up in your bathtub
There are a million things to watch on Netflix
Come watch them with me
I will wipe up every dead ant that invades the privacy of your car
I will kill every ninja that tries to assassinate you
And if you die, I will play your favorite drake song at your funeral
I don't give a fuck
Finna kiss you so hard you'll feel me on your lips for the rest of your life
Fuck every lover before and after, I want to be your right now
Lets watch Bruce Willis kill Russians together
Die hard in the backseat of a cab
Hold my hand right now
The loneliest feelings creep in when I whisper I want you into a cell phone
I could give up porn for you, I mean it.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
The happiest moments of my life all involve sandwiches
I am eating till everything taste good
The bitter memories and the salt in my wounds
The hunger makes me apathetic
you kick my head then rub my stomach
I am better when I am lonely
I thrive on the taste of the curb
Hold my hand you might tell me
and I wont because I don't feel like it
when my bed is empty
your hand is the only thing I miss
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
You spell "penis" pen is and text it to me over and over
You type "my pen is giant"
I respond "My penis giant, lol"
I try to hear you laugh from wherever you are.
Try to mimic the sound from memory but it doesn't really work.
I play a waka flocka flame song on my ipod and think "I'm a trill ass nigga"
I'm from new york so I think its ok to think that.
I text you "I'm a trill ass nigga"
and you don't text me back.
I check to see if my text was sent and it says it was and I feel stupid.
Feel like texting to you how stupid I feel but I don't do it.
I don't do anything.
I lie in bed and touch my penis.
I think "masturbation" then I think "no"
Feels like the world is going to explode.
The explosion might be ok because everyone would die simultaneously and there will be no pain/sadness.
I picture you lying in bed next to me naked.
I picture your body exploding and instead of blood and guts there is confetti.
Surprise this is not the first time I have killed you in my head.