Feel like being 'uncharacteristic'
like saying 'fuck you' on the phone
or sending you a postcard with
obscene words and writing p.s. these
are my feelings.
One day I will wake up and there
wont be thoughts about you at 4am.
Or I wont be writing about waking up
and thinking about you at 4am.
I will send you a letter that says "fuck
your merry christmas, I hope you die
at 4 am, on a weekend or something."
I don't want to die.
When the world explodes I will feel
comfort in knowing that you are somewhere
Because when I think I love you
I hope I mean I don't.