Realization or something

It took

~12 minutes

for me to

realize

that you are just

out of focus

or

range

or 

key

a screwed up concept

a fucked up melody

I don't want to hear

your noise

or

experience your

'vision'

or

dis(ab)solve in

your 

'wisdom'

I just want

to hold your hand

or

hear "I understand"

or 

"I really really care."

But all I get are

expecting glances

and dissapointment.

Fuck.